She Left Me follows the painting the Soul’s Abyss. She’s really feeling the loss more than she ever has and of course she blames herself. There is always a feeling that there is more I could have done. Self harm feels good in the face of loss because punishment is what you feel you deserve. There is also an anger towards the person who passed away. Why did you leave us. You Left Me You lost your hunger You lost your thirst You didn’t want to taste anymore Can you hear the cries of your mother Can you feel the blade in your father Can you see my hands around my own throat It’s the only thing that feels satisfying Can you see the baby Lindsay is carrying Can you see the man you stripped from your brother Can you see the man you’re making him to be You left us You left me You didn’t want to taste anymore I wish I didn’t need you I wish I didn’t love you Can you hear them Can you see them You are my worst feeling My greatest disappointment A beautiful let down You didn’t have to give up Maggie had to be feeling really low to say these things about you All she wanted to do is to protect you All she wants to do is walk beside you Do you get to watch us Do you get to see You took so much when you left Can I have my things back now? What happened to my strength, where is my courage Where is my comfort? Where is my sanity? You must have needed those things when you watched me When you watched us I can see the knife in your stomach I can see the imaginary baby you’re holding onto I can see you reaching for your brother I can’t protect you from that I can’t walk with you now How dare you How dare you Please tell me you can taste again Tell me you thirst for water Tell me you can reach your brother Tell me you can sooth your mother Tell me you can rock Lindsay’s child Show me you can use my hands and put them to good work Show me you can heal your father, revive his stomach, and straighten his back Tell me you won’t leave again Show me that you will stay You’re not allowed to leave a second time Surely it’s impossible Reveal yourself in my dreams Reveal yourself through the spiritual realm Show me Show us
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